Thursday, October 2, 2008

Think About This (for all TOA students) 'edited'

hey there.

I had this thinking when I was taking my shower (I dont know why lol),
I thought about this current life, my life in TOA (the one academy), I compared it to my ICOM life and even my high school life back in my hometown.

well maybe it's high school, so we are quite free and quite careless about anything.
but when I was in ICOM, I feel that I am alive just like the high school time. Of course we had assignments as well, classes, practices, yeah I felt depressed too. though it's fun!
i still had my life. i still be able to swim or play futsal (football), having fun with friends, hanging out. I can do my hobbies there. and of course i'm not as cold or as emo as when I have moved to TOA.

yea and when I moved here, at first I still have the habit of having fun and stuff .. and I knew that if I do that, basically I'm dead here.
it's all about working here. work work and work.
after u finish PROJECT 1 which consumed u A LOT of time and energy, then PROJECT 2 is coming your way.
it's like u're thinking. YES! finally i have done my project, time to rest. but there is no rest here.

We have like 9 terms (or semesters) of never-ending assignments and projects.
and maybe after we finish here, when we're working, maybe it is the same life that u gonna get.

- briefing of projects
- thinking of ideas (sleep late or no sleep)
- proposing ideas ( if it's accepted)
- execute the work (sleep late or no sleep)
- presentation
then u get ur money.

and then another company, and u do it again, the same thing basically. over and over again.
and I'm sure, after we are in the working life, sleeping is like NOT important. finishing the project is more important. and we know it's very very bad for ur health.

yeah u get good money from it, but do u know how much hospital will cost u when u're finally sick.

yeah u can RETIRE AT THE AGE OF 38 ( after all those hard work, all those NO SLEEP TONIGHT, finally at the age of 38 u're as rich as a polar bear )
BUT what about all the side effects?

the principle of this life is : " There is always the SIDE effects and the consequences of EVERYTHING you do "
U GET RICH FAST, U DIE FAST.

so do u really want to be rich when ure young but of course u die faster, with no happiness and no social life. yeah u have money, with money comes power, with power comes everything.
but money can't get u ur social life, ur happiness, and most importantly ur loved ones, or ur family.


WE ARE NOT robots that are controlled by money are we?
ask urself, is work and money that important to u?

when u die, ur work and ur money wont grieve for u. but ur family and ur loved ones will lose their world forever.

..DO you really want this TOA life, forever?

or maybe IT IS this life that is THAT hard. well, i can say not really..
nowadays u can get rich easy. yes i mean easy without do much, u get a steady income. example? Internet. well that's not my point of this article. (article? lol), so im not goin to explain why internet.

to conclude,
LIFE is meant to be enjoyed and cherished each day. U appreciate every second of ur breath. u will never know that maybe later or tomorrow u will die.
take this life as a gift and not a curse.


it's time to shout to the world out there: " WORK AND MONEY IS FAKE, SOMETHING THAT YOU CAN'T TAKE IN THE AFTERLIFE. SO STOP TELLING US HOW TO SURVIVE IN THIS LIFE AND BE HAPPY BY GETTING RICH !!!!! "



"Do not fear death so much, but rather the inadequate life."
Bertolt Brecht

"A man should not leave this earth with unfinished business. He should live each day as if it was a pre-flight check. He should ask each morning, am I prepared to lift-off?"
Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider

43 comments:

Anonymous said...

then what can we do

i agree with ur statements
i dun swim n badminton once the sem started..but i can only do it during the break..
while my frens from other colleges,they can go weekly,
even sometimes my frens ask me to hang out or just go for a drink,i will go,but i feel guilty..n wanna go home asap.

frens from other courses dun really understand our situation,they wil think like,really so busy meh???
aa..duno how to say,but it's like the relationship wil be worse day by day..suan le ba..duno how to say la..hahaha

n for family,sometimes i get frustrated when they ask me to go somewhere when i;m doing my work or disturb me when im struggling..

most importantly,i'm getting more n more emo since i enter toa..wtf?

study supposed to be happy as well,y r we suffering?for moneyyy???

is it really important??compare to our life??

!@#!$%#$^#%%@$

n,art is bout passion...
yes,i have,
but it wil fade away when there r due dates which suffocated us

SO HOW?

Anonymous said...

one more thing,
i really miss my secondary sch time
T.T

although i bengkui for the spm,
but i have lovely frens n teacher with me..
they even call and ask hows the exam..how this n that..
when i said,i think i din do well,they would like comfort us or wat..
such a good "fren"

unlike nowadays...

awww..
------------------------------
n,y is everything about industry?i noe,money is important,but...
aaaaaaarrr...

-----------------------------
luckily we stil have classmates that bengkui with us together..hahah..

hendryyyy said...

yeap, and they often told us to be PROFESSIONAL, but are they professional as well?

even the management of TOA is a real suck. I pay around 18000 RM for one year, total around 50000 RM++ for 3 yrs.
just a very small example of how the management sucks. OUR TAG.

we are supposed to have this class which we need to use our Student card, but it doesnt work most of the times. and we, ourselves are the one who need to go and activate it, and even after that sometimes the tag is still not working.

it's just a small things that they need to take care of, but they always told us : " U need to take care of the small things "
then what about them?

Anonymous said...

mmm...i think wat u say is right lo...studying in toa really no life....sometimes i even dont know y am i so busy...i dont even think tat im a student...im like busy than my housemate who are working in the society now...morning when they go out to work...i just wanted to go to bed...when they r going for lunch...that's the time for me to go to college...and when they come back from work...im getting ready to do my assignments...and when they sleep...im still rushing my assignments...sometimes i think, y am i so busy???y other college student can go shopping can go yamcha and they seems like so free but y not me...i totally agree wif money and career are not that important than myself lo...but honestly la...if toa life is without u guys...i think i suffer more than now...

ys said...

I have the same thoughts.. especially when I'm super stressed up. Thoughts of giving up.. And of course i cry more cuz of the heavy workload. And its irritating when people say things like.. 'art where got stress la' 'art draw only'

And then the health issue.. T.T

However, I love art and i'm passionate bout it.. And sometimes I kinda get satisfied with what I am able to create.. even drawing a head figure..

I am sure all the art students face the same thing..

Our workload is consider less comepare to out seniors and older seniors..
Look at the bright side :)

Anonymous said...

yea..the management reali sucks like hell..
esp the term break stuff..it's already short..
but keep replacement n replacement..
n wan us to wait for the otp..
ended up,only 2 weeks for break..

()U*(&^%$^%#$%

Bonbon said...

Shall I give a warm hug for you?(hmm,I'm not gay,don't worry)
I spent more than 5 minutes,actually half an hour for read through,think,and asked myself about this.

Once,TOA is my dream since long time ago,and now I've stepped into this dream(and I don't really feel like I'm awake in here.)

Of course,It's so so so much out of the EXPECTATION. Tough,tired and after that become numb. Sometimes your efforts do not worth anything. Am I dreaming?

But,I would never give up to this. Once I've decided to step into here,I will keep moving on toward the dream, to make it true.
I've told somebodies about my big big dream lot of times,

I want to work in Square Enix
I want to be a Great Director
And after that I want to have a peace life.

Of course,crazy dream
super tough way to achieve, unbelievable,so far away.
Although I might die,I might tired,I might be so so whatever~
But,I'M GOING TO DO IT!

Because it's my dream,that's why I'm here and of course
it's what I like,
so I have nothing to regret.

If you like it,just moving on without hesitate,or else you will fall.

And it's what I always believe:

Have your Honor,to Embrace your dream

Anonymous said...

agree, hmmm... not really happy for wat i have now , and emooo(not infront of others ppl)!!! busy life is the only thing i've got now .but bring happiness to the others is one of my target , thatz y i choose digi , wahaha (eventhough i dunno which to choose between illus and digi in sec sem)

and thats the only things to keep me working now , if they are happy im happy

Anonymous said...

now talking about management ! they are really suckkkkkkkkkkkkk , fck them , twice !! twicee !! last two semester ,i asked them when is the last day for tuition feeesss, two times they told that is after two weeks , after one week i pay , they wanna me to pay extra for penalty , ask them y ? because i late for pay them !!!!! what the * duuu * , 7300 for feeding this kind of dumbass to manage things , not worth

Anonymous said...

after complaining,
we stil have to work T.T
so...jia you ba..
haha

Fatt Zai said...

walao eh!!!! everyone's writing essays(except some of u) i was dying reading all comments...

wow... Stress hit u guys? emo? hooo hooo...

c'mon... dun tell me u guys expected to be easy in studying DESIGNS, do u? well...

u guys have to know it's time for us to nail an aim first... and plan ur paths/routes!

will be continue later... go sweating first...

p/s take some times to have a clear breathe for ur brain and urself. like me, spending one or two hours on sports everyday to clear my "bad sectors" from my brain of coz! ^^ do the same thing like i do!

join me!

Unknown said...

"yea and when I moved here, at first I still have the habit of having fun and stuff .. and I knew that if I do that, basically I'm dead here."

hehe, me, felt same.
1st year was really hard for me. i was so blur, hardly got what my lecturers' and classmates' saying... totally different culture and all... everyone is so busy working and i just had to work to catch up. and also if i don't work, i will fail, if i fail, my dad will have to pay extra fees :( and if i leave toa, i can't become a designer :( it's like no other choice.

i love exploring more about designing. to me, getting rich in the future is not important, but to be a designer. if i wanted money i would choose different major like manager or in business, that kind of stuff...

nd i agree with toa management. hoping that it will get better..........

Anonymous said...

let's post this in www.toa.edu.my

:)

hendryyyy said...

anonymous! i know who you are !!!! muahaha.


first of all THANK YOUUUU to all of u that read my blog and posted comments here. I'm really2 surprised and of course excited that actually u guys have the same thought with me.
arigato gosaimasubway is nice.zzz.

Poh Hui ---> yea it's so true that u have to chase ur dream till u get it although ure LITERALLY dying for it lol. but the problem is....this design life is not my dream T___T ya i dont know why i took this subject. T__T

but for u guys that actually dream to be a designer or creative director or whatever that is in design industry, then i guess go for it and dont give up :)

yea the fact is we still have projects, and we shall go for it and finish it and prove them that we are as resistant as a cockroach (u know is hard for them to die).

oh well......................
yea since i'm here, my relationship with my friends back there is getting further away. i dunno why, and i guess u know why . halah2

hendryyyy said...

btw i'm sick T_T
jag mår sjuk :(

far, jag kan inte få upp min kokosnöt, nej, inte ens med hammare och spik

Jjo.L said...

Well, it took me quite some times to read the blog and the commentssss. Flooding with essays here.

I seriously have the same thoughts as what you guys just said. I have my dreams that's why I'm now in TOA. I knew my life would be busy if I ever study this, but I never know it's super busy. It's more than doubled up!

As what I always said, TOA has the quality but bad management. You're right about the management. Sucks to hell! I'm still struggling in this design world. I'm trying my best to do everything. Well, I'm just afraid that I'll reach my limitation. I don't know.

I used to be a bubbly girl, a joyful girl who loves to smile and make everyone smile. But now, it seems like smile is just fading away from me.

If only they can understand how we feel, that would be great.

IF ONLY.....

Side effects start showing up in my body. I wonder and I'm afraid.

Tears start running down my cheek.

ys said...

I was supper stress yesterday till i cry cuz i kept thinkin 'i;m so dead, i cant finish all of this on time'.. but then my friend said.. you are not the only one goin through this.. all my other classmates are facing the same situation....


then i felt better..
somehow..
i think the best way is to keep encouraging each other



"world class management" =.=

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Anonymous said...

but still there's reason to be 'thousands of assignment' rite? i mean if u really wan to be outstanding or reach that certain standard, the same amount of effort has to be paid. maybe you have to realize this fact n find a nice way to handle the problems you'll face, like health, stress and life. i think that they just show you the way of how should do, and how much you can do decide how much you will achieve. like if you want to be an outstanding guitarist, you automatically will want to pay the effort until you reach the ideal level. and in that process, you'll find that you're actually paying the much attention and effort more than anything else. i mean that depends on what you want to achieve and the ideal outcome has to match the right effort. mayb in toa the effort is kinda passively told of what to do, so you don't feel it, until you really understand it, you may turn it into an active one and enjoy what you do. of course, to be effective, you gotta find the way to solve the problems faced, why don't take it as a challenge?

Anonymous said...

so we r loners in the middle of noway....


luckily we have classmates that keep encouraging each other..

Jjo.L said...

Good Luck people! We know that we can do it! Because I know we're all trying hard to get what we want.

Jia You!
Love you all!

hendryyyy said...

my digital media storyboard is keep changing every time i show it to the lecturers.

1st i showed my idea to the FRIDAY class, then he told me to do this.

2nd i showed it to the MONDAY class, then he told me to change a bit here and there.

3rd, i showed it to the FRIDAY class, then he told me to change a bit, he refined it. okay no prob

4th , i showed it to the MONDAY class, then he totally changed my idea @@

(is it my fault that i showed to different lecturers? but it's still the same subject. in ONE class room, won't it be the same....communications?????)

macam mana ini..bingung saya..zzzz.

and yeah for these past one month (which was the start of the new sem), I havent been really enjoyin weekend.
all i did was, i woke up, i cleaned up my room, i went out to eat, i went back, and locked myself in my room, doing asgmt, and maybe the ENTERTAINMENT i had was only watching football thru streaming, or interpals :(:(

(basically every week)


basi bener ni malam mingguan zzzz


please kidnap me to sweden or anywhere far away!!!

hendryyyy said...

someone deleted his/her own comment lol.
i know who you areee..
come out come out wherever you areeee :p :p :p

Anonymous said...

kesian bgt si

Anonymous said...

panjang amet esseinya....

tapi bener tu apa yg lu bilang,, dl gwa tidurnya awal2,,, seminggu ntah berapa kali gwa bisa peig jogging ato maen badminttonnnn,, sekarang,, mana bisa jogging lagi,, maen badmin?? hemm,, nga ada tuh yg mau diajak,, semuanya pada alasan asignment,,,

palagi belakangan,, waktu tidur gwa uda bener2 rusakkk,, jadi kebiasaan nga bisa tidur awall....

dari awal juga uda tau kalo khidupan design itu mmg begitu,, tp nga pernah nyangka kalo bakal jadi serancuh begini,,,
haizzzz.... liat si fren,, dia ampe segitu semangatnya kerjaen assignment,, ampe jarangggg bgt ol,,, kasian nga????

sebenarnya tujuan TOA bagus nga bisa buat daily live kitaaa???

Anonymous said...

from anonymous #8 &#9

yea... u guyz are one of the reason im still here , wahahaha ~ luv u all , joycy , the ppl u said u luv to including me ? wahaha

$h!124him3 said...

I absolutely agree with what you've stated since I experience the same thing
Being a majoring-in-design student is really tough, no matter in which country and college/university. Have to face endless projects, do not get enough sleep, and have no life...

Jjo.L said...

anonymous 8 & 9,

who are you? hahaha.
I love all. So, included you too.
lol.

Again, all the best.

Fatt Zai said...

Talking about the TIME,
WORKING and STUDYING are 2 different world... You never know how it really feels when comes to WORK, and have to depend on what work you wan to compare! You're now studying, ya and of coz, you think it's sux and lifeless or no life or busy, but, let me tell you, it's actually a part of our daily practice and training for our future!

REASONs:
-we all jz lack of time management.
-we all jz lack of references
-we all jz lazy(maybe sometimes, but it really affects us, indirectly and directly)
-we all jz too competitive!
-we all jz wan to achieve high scores
-we all jz wan our parents to be happy and know we had tried our best to score
-we all jz think too much
-we all yet to know how the real world actually looks like
-we all yet settle down our own feet on the paths/routes we wanna walk or move on
-we all yet have courage to accept the failures and roadblocks!
-we all yet dare to try something yet to be exist in the world! (we lack of creativity sometimes)

p/s.
i apologize if i had crossed the line... ^^ peace

Fatt Zai said...

DAMN!! more and more essays posted up here!!!

You all sound really STRESSed...
since my last view of tis post, day b4 yesterday.

hoo hoo...
FINALLY my design method I's designs have been APPROVED! i'm slow!! damn, i have to start them all up, NOW!
i m super "kia su"! dun like tat leh, slow down leh, let me catch up u guys first leh! hahaha, keep on moving, dun wait! jz go!!! i will catch up later! FOR SURE!

OH ya,
talking about fun, tell you wat, y dun u guys try to have fun on visiting DEVIANTART or GOOGLE? they are way too GOOD to be our helpers on designing and ideas or concepts. Spent around or at least 30mins on each sites everytime! You will get your ideas or also visuals easily and fast!

I'm not tat "pro" of coz, but i really enjoy spending some times on viewing them and ya, i do sports, main bcoz i can clear my mind, or i can have my mind "EMPTY" then i can drag in ideas or visuals into my mind so tat i can straight the way come out with design(s) which i have/would need to do after that...

Have yourself think that you're DIFFERENT!
Have yourself feel like you're DOING GREAT!

Trust me, STRESS is a word that you make it happen or exist!
Emo, we cant avoid, coz we are human, even we might think we are design-robots!

p.s. tis one suppose to be the earlier post. but then, too long, i have to re-type all! i got essays ooo ^^

Anonymous said...

i wanna do sports too
but i wil be tired after that
then cant do my work alrady
@@

Anonymous said...

after read through all of this comments..
TOA really give us a hard time n' it will b goin 2 more years..
but now we ord major, i think we should used to stress..
if compare to our seniors, they hav more stresses n assgs than us (example: last time for figures r 20 for 1 week *fark it*)



n' the quote for all lecturers (tat i hate most) will say industry require this, require that.. but we dun take it in heart, we take it as a advice so we wont get so stress abt it..
who cares abt wat the industry wants, we all got our own ways to get things done..


n' after we come to TOA, get know alot of frens tat like design n art.. we all hav the same interest (this is wat u cant get at other colleges).


but for now i hate most is TOA'a management.. it really sucks..


i think u guys should get more rest instead of pushin' urself doin' assgs.. tat's really bad for ur health.. plan ur schedule earlier n' hav sum fun..
but dun rush for last minute work..


last.. all the best for mr.lim (who create a riot on TOA) n other frens in TOA.. happy assg~~ woohooo~~

hendryyyy said...

haha thanks for the last anonymous there.
im not creating any riot.
im just speaking up my concerns. we all have the rights to do that dont we?
its democracy! haha (bullshit)

oh btw, im sorry but i dont agree of one of ur statement there :

" n' after we come to TOA, get know alot of frens tat like design n art.. we all hav the same interest (this is wat u cant get at other colleges). "

haha no no, my friends in icom shared the same hobbies even more .


well thats just my opinion, no offense anonymous :D:D:D

thanks again btw

piNkkkkkkk said...

ngahahahhhaa* stuju abis dah* plg gila2an itu guw wkt 1st year 2nd term.. parah abis mpe tepar guw pas ud mau sesai term nya ckckck..

emg toa push banget murid2nya utk kek gtu karna emg dunia kerjaan ya kek gni ckck

bnr2 wkt awal ga bs having fun T___T tugas slalu* tidur pagi klas pagi zzzz gokil abis*

tp emg bgnilah ank2 design..smua menderita yang sama kok* XDDD
tp buat guw, knapa seh libur toa itu cm 3mggan?plg poll 1bulan!! ckck
ga sebanding sama waktu2 tidur yg uda tersita ckck~

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